Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone had has a wonderful Thanksgiving. I am dropping in now to report that I have started to write more than a few papers for a story. And how did this all come about? 

Come in closer for it's a secret. I have been reinforcing my desire to change from the outside in and I have been doing so with EFT aka Tapping. 

But what really made this all come about? What were the steps that I took that help me move this far along? 

Well one day I was feeling really despondent and hating everything around me. I knew how it was before when I started down this path after a big revelation at 22 which really opened my eyes that I had to make a change or I was going to end up bitter for the rest of my life. I didn’t want that. 

So I asked myself, what I did than, this can’t be all there is to life. What can be done to change this? A while later as I distracted myself with videos on Youtube, one of Bob Proctors videos popped up and it reminded that no matter what I do if I don’t change my paradigm I can’t change my outer reality. 

Ever since that day, I have made a commit to myself no matter how I do I am going to change my paradigm. Since that moment, I have been having videos and books mostly popping up for to either tap along with or read to expand my awareness more to better understand what paradigms are. And what I can do to change them. 

But I know that it’s the desire to make those changes that are helping to make all this shifts that has happened only in a matter of months and if also helps to go with the flow. I meditate when I am moved to. I tap with I am moved to. 

Do things only when you are moved to do them. I have learned this great lesson while I am going through all this shifts and I know more will comes as I have started to work on my money paradigm which has really opened my eyes to surprises that have keep me from earning more money. 

Now those blocks feel more like a dream and I am really surprise that I believe such nonsense at one point but you’ll surprise yourself with what you pick up around and you don’t really realize it up you start to do work like this. But you got to commit no matter what and follow through or it won’t work. 

I am not going to say I am not scared of what could happen to me after all this has been released but I have this phrase in a movie and I swear by it, how do you know what you’ll become if you don’t become it. 

The unknown can be frighten I’ve got to admit that it has scared me off on more than one occasion but I am slowly realizing that the more  you expose the unknown the less frightening it can be to you. 

Fear is merely an alarm system that lets you know that you are pushing through you comfort zone and I couldn’t have said it better than Neale Donald Walsch has when he said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.”

You never know what you can do unless you start to push your limits because if you don't I have learned you are only hurting yourself by remain small. Life is big why can't you be too? 

Lost in Transition

Like the title reads, I have been lost in transition as I have experience my ups and downs some extreme ups and some extreme lows. I keep questioning, what could I bee missing?

Although I am better than I was before but I am still not where I want to be. It become an obsession.

What could I be doing differently about what I could be doing differently that will help manifest the life I want to create that something that is created for me.

I want to making the chooses to manifest that life I want not having someone hiding behind the curtain creating that life from me.

I know I will be creating that life with help but I want to be conscious enough to take action to create that life. In other words, I want to be actively creating that life I want to create.

So I decided to go back to basic, I have this notebook where I started to write down questions that come up although it isn't often because many of times when I have questions I am working and my notebook is tucked away in my purse.

Sometimes it get really busy when I am working so the questions I have drift away. When I do get the chance to sit down and write I can file at least one page back to back now mind you it a small notebook but it suits my needs perfectly.

I picked up tools from the past and joined them with the new tools that I have now. Not only that but everything I want to experience has a dollar sign attached to it so I decided to ask, what would it take to change that?

What would it take for me to find tools and techniques that have no dollar signs attached that will help make these changes?

So right at the moment I am going over two books I bought a long time ago, and I have changed my morning routine to just two hours of meditation about and I started to writing in my journal that I have title Change My Paradigms. I am watching Bob Proctor's videos and just following my intuition where it would lead.

I know it's been awhile but like I said before I was lost in the void for a bit. I am going to focus on changing those paradigms to move forward from the inside out and always watching where I am going in the process. I will let you know what happens.

Perception

Since I complete the Unlock Your Abundance Matrix about a week ago, I have noticed that everything that triggers me I become instantly aware of them.

I go through the processes some days are better than others as I found myself exhausted after doing the clearings. But I realized now that it just my body telling me it's time to rest while the processing tools clean house.

I also noticed I am going on three months for the Magnetic Pills that I have been taking and they have worked wonders as I barely forget things anymore and if I do it's only briefly.


I got my mom to started taking them as well and her response to it was different as I remember the first couple of weeks I started taking them. I would get a bit dizzy at times.

I am still young and I don't have that my dis-ease running through me but my mom on the other has responded differently as her body needs it the most so she didn't have that dizziness that I experienced.

I taught it would better to start now then to start at the time when the dis-ease shows if at all but my body is thankful for the extra boost it gets from this pill.

I am learning a great deal about myself lately since the program end and I started combining tools and skills together to help keep me moving at a steady pace of evolution, expansion, growth and knowledge.

Shifts and Transformations

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! I am back for a long absence and I am looking forward to let my readers know what has been going on. Since the last time I posted, I register for the Unlock Your Abundance Matrix program. 

I've dream so long since I've first heard about this program but now it almost seem surreal that I am finally in this program taking advantage of every single moment of this. 

I am in day eleven of Unlock Your Abundance Matrix and I am having a really good time with it. I am learning to simple notice what comes up for me and going through the process to help harmonize to release then to transform into something that is beneficial and serves my highest good. Every time I run the holographic tools, I feel that I continue to get lighter and lighter energetically. 

From the moment I started with this program, I began to notice that may thing that I've done were to keep me in the old patterns and beliefs of being but I put my foot down and decided that enough was enough. I have been working two jobs since the last time I posted anything here. 

I began to perceptive things at one of the work places, every time I would get there I would get drained. It became lifeless. I enjoyed the people I worked with but the management wasn't what I expected it to be. 

The atmosphere became toxic and fast, everything went into a downward spiral. To make this simpler I wasn't happy there anymore and it was time for a shift so I decided to continue my education and move forward to create a better life for myself and those around me. 

About a month

It's been about a month since I started take the Magnetic pills and they have done a world of help for me. I've been to silence the clatter that goes in my mind. I am down to only a couple left and sent out for more and I am looking forward to what happens in my second month.

I am starting to see the change from inside out as everything around is appearing different. I am noticing see things that I didn't before and I am seeing the warning alarms early on and I am acting on changing those things that are no longer working for.

I have started to be the changes I want to see in myself and the outside is starting to reflect what is going on the inside. I've started to realize when I start to stray off the path in the past or when I start to think of the future but I check myself and return to the present moment. I do have my ups and downs but its not as often now then it was before I start down this path to experience abundance and health in all aspects of my life.

Inner Retreat

Since I posted last, I decided to take sometime away from outward more towards inward as I felt myself falling apart at one point.

I started to read more books where I find my attention was going to. I have several books I've started which I haven't finished due to my work schedule but I find myself taking in a lot more information than before.

I've added meditation to my routine.When I add a meditation from Paul Santisi, I have noticed a big changed when I wake in the morning, I do it sometimes at night before bed, I find myself not thinking of anything.

It strange as I find the separateness from my body, there is a sensation of pulling a heavy weight. I don't realize that I have a body until I start to wake more fully. I have learned through this meditation that it helps to set me up for the day. I have yet to find the answer to the tiredness but I know I will find it.

I find that going down the stairs that lead me into the living room. I see them stretch and dip beneath my feet. I sometimes feel that I am not longer vibrating in this dimension and when I finally make it to the landing everything goes back to normal but I do miss that different vibration if felt different but it also felt wonderful.

What To Write When You Don’t Know What To Write?

We, writers, get hit with this question a lot of times. We are staring at a blank screen or down at a sheet of paper the words that were there one minute ago flowing so nicely so effortlessly but now are gone within a blink of an eye. That’s because your expectation for those words were high at which point you decided that they weren’t good enough and you dismissed them, yes you dismissed them.

Now don’t go beating yourself up over this just acknowledged the fact that your expectations were high for those words that had yet to be put on the page. So just acknowledge that you are doing this, that you are doing this because now you have the awareness to change that habit.

So instead of having any sort of expectation for these words that are flowing from the Divine Inspiration, just let them be words simple words with nothing attached to them. Because often times when our standards are too high, the intern afflict ourselves with the dreaded Writer’s Block.

I learned a great deal while reading Jeff Vandermeer’s Wonderbook, the best things that came from this book so far has been the section about Writer’s Block. There are two things I got from reading the section, first was to change your perception of Writer’s Block to the actual blocks with letter, like the picture. And secondly is to distract yourself from that writing issue at hand. Through distracting yourself, you leave yourself open for the Divine to inspire you without hinders from anything or anyone.

Just remember to TAKE ACTION and write down whatever comes to your mind no matter how silly it may seem to you at the time. Suspend all judgment and attachment to the words that come through and just write them down or type them down if you are at your computer. 

Letter Blocks *wink wink*

I’ve had my battles with Writer’s Block over the years when I started to take up writing and for me it won’t be days or weeks for me it would turn into month and even years. The stories sitting in a notebook on my desk or sitting in my computer folder collecting cyber dust, begrudging me that I hadn’t complete them. But since reading this book, I haven’t finished it yet but it’s amazing how years of battling with Writer’s Block it all changes within a matter of a couple of pages from this book.

Even before sitting down to type this post up, I started to wonder what I was going to write about today. What knowledge that I have that no one else has? What can I give you, the reader that no one else has given them before? That’s the when the title came to me, so instead of judging and attaching any meaning to it, I let the words flow and here I am doing something I love and following the whisper of my heart to type just the words that need to be heard with zero attachment or judgment.

Feel As If You Have It

Good morning! I hope everyone's having a wonderful morning just like I have. Today we are going to talk about the concept of "Feel as if you have it." I have actually had trouble with this concept in the past, I say in the past because I came to the realization that I wasn't doing this concept or rather putting into action this concept.

When I realized what I was doing it caused me to become aware of an old habit, I have actually shut down my ability to feel slightly be disappointed if things didn't come to pass the way I intended them to. But all that's changed now because somehow overnight a light bulb went off and I finally got it!

So now before I write in my gratitude log about the past, the present, and the future; I get into that space of FEELING grateful for all the things that has happened, that are happening, and that are going to happen as if they have already happened now in the present.

It's really important that you feel what you intend to manifest in the here and now because it already exists in another plane of existence but you feeling it now brings into this plane of existence so that way you can manifest it.

What Started It All?

What started it all for me, it began on my 22nd birthday things occurred that day that put me on this path of conscious awakening. Before that time, I spent it stumbling around in the dark not knowing where to go and not knowing what I was going to do with my life.

Sufficient to say that that birthday would always remind me that even though events that day hurt me at the time, I will always be grateful to them because they opened my eyes to things I didn't want to see at the time.

The hurt was long forgotten and forgiven because it was through that hurt that I transformed my life, I never looked back. I keep moving forward because it's in the here and now is where it matters.

In those days, before my birthday were very dark or at least that's how I saw them at that time. I came to the realization that year before the new year, that I wasn't happy at all and that I can continue on like this. I felt myself dying inside, and the writing looked was very dark.

I saw no sunlight or light. In those times, the darkness was so thick that the light couldn't get through to me but that hurt caused a crack in the darkness however small it allowed light to filter in to me. I consciously realized that I needed to change, that I needed to change because no one else is going to do it for me.

So began my journey for change, and so here I am enjoying the journey and not concern myself  with the destination.

What do I mean when I say I've gone through the purging process?

I realize in my last entry that I was a little vague on the subject of purging one's body of the old way of being. Of course the purging I am talking about has nothing to do with the movie, but the concept is similar as it has to do with the removal of impurities in the body for me in a violent way of doing it through vomiting and migraines.

I want to clarify there is killing involved unless you count the clearing that is involved with the old way of being (impurities) no humans were harmed in the purging of my body. Because instead of resisting the process, I went with the flow.

Now by definition purging means to remove (impurities and other elements) by or as if by cleansing, in case there is still some confusion about what I mean when I say I underwent the purging process in a positive manner.

Purging Moments

Today has been a hectic day, first I didn't need to go into work today but it all worked out in my favor because I was able to come home early. Only when I got home I wasn't feeling too well, I started to get one of my migraines. I realized that it was my body purging itself of the old way of being.

It is my body's way of showing me that I am evolving, growing, and learning new ways of being. I'm still feeling a little bit unwell but I am recovering quickly and rapidly with the knowledge that I am looking at new horizons and endless possibilities coming my way.

Our bodies has an interesting way of letting us know when we have gone beyond the old ways of being. For each person is is different, some may feel nothing while others feel something. The thing is to allow whatever comes your way because if you resist it things will only get worse.

Go with the flow, you'll be surprised where it takes you.

Thoughts on Commitment

For anything that you're doing in life. You must be fully and completely committed to it, how else are you go to make a change in life if you are committed to that change in life. If you want to get that car, if you want to have that money you need to be committed to it and to do so after going a little bit of help.

Now to do that you must put in the work to create the change in your life. I noticed that with myself, I wanted to change my life so badly that I neglected to put into practice what I have learned at a complete laziness and a little help from the Ego of course.

Now of course it takes two people to tango and if I had not listened to the ego I wouldn't be or rather I wouldn't be where I don't want to be. But everything is a learning experience, and I'm learning a great deal about myself because of what I was not doing.

Now no matter where you are in your life or where you're not in your life everything is a learning experience so don't lament where you are now because where you are now will only help you to grow as an individual and also will help the collective consciousness grow as a whole.

Synergistic Experience

I am amazed at this synergistic experience I just had today. I was thinking about an old friend that I had and spoke to when a long time. I was also thinking about where my next income was can come from. Suddenly this friend calls and we start talking for a while he tell me what was going on, I told him what was going on.

And he told me that he was working at Amazon again, so he suggested that I apply their for the packing or the picking department. Who would've thought that out of all the techniques that I was using today this would show up in my life right here right now.

It simply goes to show, that the universe is always providing for you and that if you stay open to it you will receive the answers to your questions. It is simply the universe showing you proof that it is providing for you.

I am looking forward to writing more about the proof the universe provides for you and the more you notice the more you will seek.

A Look Into A Conscious Journey

Since beginning with Prosper, I have noticed a lot of changes. I've started to use the check in with self technique even though I started it yesterday. I am seeing amazing results. It is keep me from rummaging on things and it nips things in the bud before they can grow and make of mess of things.

Now what am I talking? Well I am talking about e-motions or energies in motion. These e-motions have been causing me to have a great bit of challenges not saying there is anything wrong with challenges. I am talking about unnecessary ones that where created because I did know any different but now I do.

Not only that but I have come to realized that everything I have learn up to this point, I don't implicate it. Why? Because of the concept the grass is greener on the other side, instead of 'eating the grass that is in front of me,' I keep looking for something taster and in the end I don't eat which leads me to be hungry. This hunger that I am observing comes from the lack of action to make things better than what they are by the using of these tools.

Now instead of lamenting what I haven't done, I acknowledge what I haven't done. Thank it because I noticed that the Ego gets very quiet when you thank it because it's the one that started this to big with but it does take two to tango so. If I hadn't listen to it, I won't be where I am now. I acknowledge that fact that I haven't implicate what I have learned and begin to implicate that's all.

I have begun to noticed more often that not that I am not feeling anything at all sometimes. I am closer to reach that flat line as some people call it where I can choose what I am feeling and what I am thinking about. And this is where the magic begins because once you have control over you thoughts and feelings, you are able to fly I guess you can say to reach your dreams that you once thought were our of your reach.