Digging Deep

That's right, what I have avoid this whole time has come back to stare at me in the face so I decided no more running.

What's the worst that could happen? I finished reading the Tapping Into Wealth and went through the chakra tapping as well which I still do when I am moved to do so.

I have started to do a lot more tapping but it isn't just the tapping but also I am determined to make the changes necessary to get where I am going in life.

I am done living this mediocre life. The first things that came up for me was being bullied in my younger years and since tapping on it, the sting has been removed.

It's merely a gray and white picture now all the energy that was behind it has diminished a lot and I only did one round of tapping.

But I have a learned a great deal about myself since starting down on this path. I've done a great deal of shifting and moving through a lot of energy that no longer serves me and my highest good.

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope everyone had has a wonderful Thanksgiving. I am dropping in now to report that I have started to write more than a few papers for a story. And how did this all come about? 

Come in closer for it's a secret. I have been reinforcing my desire to change from the outside in and I have been doing so with EFT aka Tapping. 

But what really made this all come about? What were the steps that I took that help me move this far along? 

Well one day I was feeling really despondent and hating everything around me. I knew how it was before when I started down this path after a big revelation at 22 which really opened my eyes that I had to make a change or I was going to end up bitter for the rest of my life. I didn’t want that. 

So I asked myself, what I did than, this can’t be all there is to life. What can be done to change this? A while later as I distracted myself with videos on Youtube, one of Bob Proctors videos popped up and it reminded that no matter what I do if I don’t change my paradigm I can’t change my outer reality. 

Ever since that day, I have made a commit to myself no matter how I do I am going to change my paradigm. Since that moment, I have been having videos and books mostly popping up for to either tap along with or read to expand my awareness more to better understand what paradigms are. And what I can do to change them. 

But I know that it’s the desire to make those changes that are helping to make all this shifts that has happened only in a matter of months and if also helps to go with the flow. I meditate when I am moved to. I tap with I am moved to. 

Do things only when you are moved to do them. I have learned this great lesson while I am going through all this shifts and I know more will comes as I have started to work on my money paradigm which has really opened my eyes to surprises that have keep me from earning more money. 

Now those blocks feel more like a dream and I am really surprise that I believe such nonsense at one point but you’ll surprise yourself with what you pick up around and you don’t really realize it up you start to do work like this. But you got to commit no matter what and follow through or it won’t work. 

I am not going to say I am not scared of what could happen to me after all this has been released but I have this phrase in a movie and I swear by it, how do you know what you’ll become if you don’t become it. 

The unknown can be frighten I’ve got to admit that it has scared me off on more than one occasion but I am slowly realizing that the more  you expose the unknown the less frightening it can be to you. 

Fear is merely an alarm system that lets you know that you are pushing through you comfort zone and I couldn’t have said it better than Neale Donald Walsch has when he said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.”

You never know what you can do unless you start to push your limits because if you don't I have learned you are only hurting yourself by remain small. Life is big why can't you be too? 

Shifts and Transformations

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! I am back for a long absence and I am looking forward to let my readers know what has been going on. Since the last time I posted, I register for the Unlock Your Abundance Matrix program. 

I've dream so long since I've first heard about this program but now it almost seem surreal that I am finally in this program taking advantage of every single moment of this. 

I am in day eleven of Unlock Your Abundance Matrix and I am having a really good time with it. I am learning to simple notice what comes up for me and going through the process to help harmonize to release then to transform into something that is beneficial and serves my highest good. Every time I run the holographic tools, I feel that I continue to get lighter and lighter energetically. 

From the moment I started with this program, I began to notice that may thing that I've done were to keep me in the old patterns and beliefs of being but I put my foot down and decided that enough was enough. I have been working two jobs since the last time I posted anything here. 

I began to perceptive things at one of the work places, every time I would get there I would get drained. It became lifeless. I enjoyed the people I worked with but the management wasn't what I expected it to be. 

The atmosphere became toxic and fast, everything went into a downward spiral. To make this simpler I wasn't happy there anymore and it was time for a shift so I decided to continue my education and move forward to create a better life for myself and those around me. 

Inner Retreat

Since I posted last, I decided to take sometime away from outward more towards inward as I felt myself falling apart at one point.

I started to read more books where I find my attention was going to. I have several books I've started which I haven't finished due to my work schedule but I find myself taking in a lot more information than before.

I've added meditation to my routine.When I add a meditation from Paul Santisi, I have noticed a big changed when I wake in the morning, I do it sometimes at night before bed, I find myself not thinking of anything.

It strange as I find the separateness from my body, there is a sensation of pulling a heavy weight. I don't realize that I have a body until I start to wake more fully. I have learned through this meditation that it helps to set me up for the day. I have yet to find the answer to the tiredness but I know I will find it.

I find that going down the stairs that lead me into the living room. I see them stretch and dip beneath my feet. I sometimes feel that I am not longer vibrating in this dimension and when I finally make it to the landing everything goes back to normal but I do miss that different vibration if felt different but it also felt wonderful.