Our friendship blossom over a decades
and over three sets of seasonal changes. We
shared in happy moments and secrets that I
trusted to no other.
Only to see you turn you’re back to me when
faced with truth and reality. Fear gripped you
tightly. I sought only comfort and support but
instead receive cold words of programming.
I walked a fine line that day with friendship
that was so delicate like a frozen lake with
cracks on the surface uncertain when it would
give way beneath my feet.
The trust was delicate enough that it shattered
under the pressure of others and the lack of
reaching out to help your fellow man in need.
The rope broke, I fell into a lake of desolation
only for the ice to break apart and I sunk into the
cold waters. I floated in the murky depths of a
nightmare.
I numbly tried to swim up to the surface but the
grip of betrayal held me tight until one day I
broke away and was greeted by the warmth of
unconditional acceptance.
The waters that once held me down, suffocating me
released me and I broke the surface with a new sense
of life and passion. To never look back on those dark
days and embrace what it is to live, truly live.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Monday, April 04, 2011
April PAD Challenge Day 3
The world would be a quiet place,
with no laughter and outrageous
thoughts. No fresh perspectives
to force others to think outside
of the box. One less individual
and one less voice to touch the
heart of others where it really
matters.
with no laughter and outrageous
thoughts. No fresh perspectives
to force others to think outside
of the box. One less individual
and one less voice to touch the
heart of others where it really
matters.
April PAD Challenge Day 2
Beneath a sea of gray clouds,
I find joy in the knowledge of
at being one with everything.
I find joy in the knowledge of
at being one with everything.
April PAD Challenge Day 1
Clawing and pulling clumps of dirt as
I climbed up the mountain side, the path
unseen, clouded by anger and resentment.
Lies and fears society manipulated me to try
to keep me from the true path. Light shone
brightly at the top of the mountain urging me
forward.
Urging me to reach for the truth despite the
uncertain that brewed with my heart. I let
instinct take over and found that what was
one took effort now became effortless.
I was given a rope, a life line to the top,
but the climb seem never ending and at
times I thought I show the light dim as
doubt stirred beneath my breast.
Persistence keep me going until I reached
the top, I felt warmth and safe enveloped me.
I lay there with the embrace of this essences and
I knew that my journey was not over.
I rose to my feet and look before me at the beauty of
lush forest and amongst the tall ancient trees lay a path
that of twist and turns. I look over the edge of the
mountain to find myself staring into an abyss of
darkness.
A chasm of dark history that beckoned my back into its
embrace and it sang of victimhood and lifelessness.
Behind me was only desolation and death. Before me
stood a world of wonder and miracles, a voice called to me.
Beyond the woods spoke a voice of guidance and unity.
I stepped towards the path with secure footing, the past
howled to me to stop. But its screams fell silent in the
face of divinity true essence of unconditional love.
I now walk the path where I am not alone. A path in which
I meet with great mentors and teachers that help me grow with
each step I take. Friendships help me to learn of the laughter and
love. Experiences that help me evolve into a better person every day,
in hopes to become that closer to my higher purpose.
I climbed up the mountain side, the path
unseen, clouded by anger and resentment.
Lies and fears society manipulated me to try
to keep me from the true path. Light shone
brightly at the top of the mountain urging me
forward.
Urging me to reach for the truth despite the
uncertain that brewed with my heart. I let
instinct take over and found that what was
one took effort now became effortless.
I was given a rope, a life line to the top,
but the climb seem never ending and at
times I thought I show the light dim as
doubt stirred beneath my breast.
Persistence keep me going until I reached
the top, I felt warmth and safe enveloped me.
I lay there with the embrace of this essences and
I knew that my journey was not over.
I rose to my feet and look before me at the beauty of
lush forest and amongst the tall ancient trees lay a path
that of twist and turns. I look over the edge of the
mountain to find myself staring into an abyss of
darkness.
A chasm of dark history that beckoned my back into its
embrace and it sang of victimhood and lifelessness.
Behind me was only desolation and death. Before me
stood a world of wonder and miracles, a voice called to me.
Beyond the woods spoke a voice of guidance and unity.
I stepped towards the path with secure footing, the past
howled to me to stop. But its screams fell silent in the
face of divinity true essence of unconditional love.
I now walk the path where I am not alone. A path in which
I meet with great mentors and teachers that help me grow with
each step I take. Friendships help me to learn of the laughter and
love. Experiences that help me evolve into a better person every day,
in hopes to become that closer to my higher purpose.
Freedom for Writing
Started the day the just right as I was able to get up somewhat early. I am still a bit exhausted but thanks to my protein shake I've got the energy I need to get my things done. Good News! Yesterday, I've registered for a free creative weeks course that last for seven weeks and I plan to take again in June. I am going to take every opportunity that I am given to improve my writing. I'll use the course to complete The Masquerade I am working on. Everything happens for a reason and I am glad that I took action with little hesitation on my part. I've only started lately to set intentions and I am glad that I've started because now I am seeing how useful they really are. Somehow those simply words 'I intend...' get things going a lot faster and without those words they is simply no motivation at all. Of course that is what I think. 
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Goals of the Week
- Focus on getting my manuscript polished
- Complete the writing project: The Masquerade
Saturday, April 02, 2011
Day 7
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 7: To maintain the energy and the vibrational shift you have had from playing this game, today the Universe is giving you $16000 to spend! Get into a 'good' feeling space before you spend it - have fun!!!
I spent in on a sing bowl, plants, herbs, new bed covers, a couple pieces of clothing, electrical blanket, writing supplies, chair, table for the computer, crystal skull, crystal healing necklaces, practice belly dance outfit, and Val Zdreo necklaces. And the rest if for personal hobbies supplies. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
DAY 7: To maintain the energy and the vibrational shift you have had from playing this game, today the Universe is giving you $16000 to spend! Get into a 'good' feeling space before you spend it - have fun!!!
I spent in on a sing bowl, plants, herbs, new bed covers, a couple pieces of clothing, electrical blanket, writing supplies, chair, table for the computer, crystal skull, crystal healing necklaces, practice belly dance outfit, and Val Zdreo necklaces. And the rest if for personal hobbies supplies. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Friday, April 01, 2011
Day 6
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 6: sit and smile, feel the appreciation and gratitude, breathe it in and allow it to resonate through your being. Then breathe out the feeling into the universe. Today you have $15000 to spend- ENJOY xxx
I have paid off all my bills. With enough left over to take online classes and go on a retreat. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
DAY 6: sit and smile, feel the appreciation and gratitude, breathe it in and allow it to resonate through your being. Then breathe out the feeling into the universe. Today you have $15000 to spend- ENJOY xxx
I have paid off all my bills. With enough left over to take online classes and go on a retreat. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Day 5
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 5: The Universe is abundant and it is sharing this abundance with you. Today you have $10 000 to spend - as always have fun xxx
I spend it on building my two story library, secret passages and with a little left over to buy my kindle. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. :)
DAY 5: The Universe is abundant and it is sharing this abundance with you. Today you have $10 000 to spend - as always have fun xxx
I spend it on building my two story library, secret passages and with a little left over to buy my kindle. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. :)
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Day 4
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 4: you have $6000 to spend, be as descriptive as you can about what you buy, have fun xx
I spent it on beautiful intricate hand fans, elegant masquerade masks, a black violin, a carve trunk to store my journals in, same model cellphone but newer one, start my collection of my favorite anime shows and movies. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
DAY 4: you have $6000 to spend, be as descriptive as you can about what you buy, have fun xx
I spent it on beautiful intricate hand fans, elegant masquerade masks, a black violin, a carve trunk to store my journals in, same model cellphone but newer one, start my collection of my favorite anime shows and movies. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Day 3
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 3: Oooooooo you have $3000 to spend today, have lots of fun with it xx
I spent it on journals, desktop computer, ipod touch, a computer chair, cooling fans for my laptop, vanilla scents candles, a bonsai tree and knitting yarn. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
DAY 3: Oooooooo you have $3000 to spend today, have lots of fun with it xx
I spent it on journals, desktop computer, ipod touch, a computer chair, cooling fans for my laptop, vanilla scents candles, a bonsai tree and knitting yarn. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Day 2
Julie LeBusque Lake
DAY 2: you have $2000 to spend. Enjoy it xx
I spent it updating my library with more self help books, romance, self help programs and mediation cds. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
DAY 2: you have $2000 to spend. Enjoy it xx
I spent it updating my library with more self help books, romance, self help programs and mediation cds. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Day 1
Julie LeBusque Lake
Ok let's play a game! We'll play for the next 7 days. I'll post what we are doing each day, and you just post your comments. Remember to get into the feel of the game and to have fun with it!
DAY 1: you have $1000 to spend using your imagination, the only rule is that you have to spend the money today....
I spend it buying myself a I3 intel new laptop, 1T external hard drive, and a comfortable laptop table with cooling fan. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Ok let's play a game! We'll play for the next 7 days. I'll post what we are doing each day, and you just post your comments. Remember to get into the feel of the game and to have fun with it!
DAY 1: you have $1000 to spend using your imagination, the only rule is that you have to spend the money today....
I spend it buying myself a I3 intel new laptop, 1T external hard drive, and a comfortable laptop table with cooling fan. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Inspirational Story
When you set your mind to it nothing is impossible. If this author can do it so can I ;) Kindle Millionaire Amanda Hocking Goes Traditional
Friday, July 10, 2009
Song: Winternight Artist: Visions of Atlantis
Song: Winternight
Artist: Visions of Atlantis
Mournfull cries in my mind
In this stormy winternight
Paint a shadow on my heart
A black cloud rains over me
See, this is me, no pleasure to see
Still the dark cloud is surrounding me
Scared, to be a different kind of my own
And the storm is raging on and on
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Tried to breathe in rays of light
I can't be without my winternight
See, this is me, no pleasure to see
Still the dark cloud is surrounding me
Scared, to be a different kind of my own
And the storm is raging on and on
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Uncovered secrets will never be found
No rebirth, no regrets never be the one to hold
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Uncovered secrets will never be found
No rebirth, no regrets
Never be the one to hold.
Artist: Visions of Atlantis
Mournfull cries in my mind
In this stormy winternight
Paint a shadow on my heart
A black cloud rains over me
See, this is me, no pleasure to see
Still the dark cloud is surrounding me
Scared, to be a different kind of my own
And the storm is raging on and on
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Tried to breathe in rays of light
I can't be without my winternight
See, this is me, no pleasure to see
Still the dark cloud is surrounding me
Scared, to be a different kind of my own
And the storm is raging on and on
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Uncovered secrets will never be found
No rebirth, no regrets never be the one to hold
Cold winternight - no way out of the dark
No one's leading me back
To the place where I belong
Uncovered secrets will never be found
No rebirth, no regrets
Never be the one to hold.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Song: Amaranth Artist: Nightwish
Song: Amaranth
Artist: Nightwish
The doubting one by heart
Alone without himself
War between him and the day
Need someone to blame
In the end, little he can do alone
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Apart from the wandering pack
In this brief flight of time we reach
For the ones, whoever dare
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
[2x]
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Reaching, searching for something untouched
Hearing voices of the Never-Fading calling
[2x]
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Artist: Nightwish
The doubting one by heart
Alone without himself
War between him and the day
Need someone to blame
In the end, little he can do alone
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Apart from the wandering pack
In this brief flight of time we reach
For the ones, whoever dare
You believe but what you see
You receive but what you give
[2x]
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Reaching, searching for something untouched
Hearing voices of the Never-Fading calling
[2x]
Caress the one, the Never-Fading
Rain in your heart - the tears of snow-white sorrow
Caress the one, the hiding amaranth
In a land of the daybreak
Song: Mordred's Lullaby Artist: Heather Dale
Song: Mordred's Lullaby
Artist: Heather Dale
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Guileless son,
I'll shape your belief
And you'll always know that your father's a thief
And you won't understand the cause of your grief
But you'll always follow the voices beneath
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Guileless son,
Your spirit will hate her
The flower who married my brother the traitor
And you will expose his puppet behaviour
For you are the proof of how he betrayed her
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Hush, child
Darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Guileless son,
Each day you grow older
Each moment I'm watching my vengeance unfold
For the child of my body, the flesh of my soul
Will die in returning the birthright he stole
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Artist: Heather Dale
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Guileless son,
I'll shape your belief
And you'll always know that your father's a thief
And you won't understand the cause of your grief
But you'll always follow the voices beneath
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Guileless son,
Your spirit will hate her
The flower who married my brother the traitor
And you will expose his puppet behaviour
For you are the proof of how he betrayed her
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Hush, child
Darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Guileless son,
Each day you grow older
Each moment I'm watching my vengeance unfold
For the child of my body, the flesh of my soul
Will die in returning the birthright he stole
Loyalty loyalty loyalty loyalty
Loyalty loyalty loyalty only to me
Hush, child
The darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Child, the darkness will rise from the deep
And carry you down into sleep
Song: Sins of Idealism Artist: After Forever
Song: Sins of Idealism
Artist: After Forever
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
there is so much I don't get
Please don't be mad at me; I will try harder,
I'll really do the best I can
(Mother) That's not enough
You're the cause of my domestic captivity
(Child) And I will close my eyes and fantasize
of a world that's not so cold
(Mother) That's how it will be
Suffer the causes of my personal misery
I've sacrificed my beauty,
my freedom, my dreams,
the independent me
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
Don't blame me for things I didn't do
Yes, I will go now and I'll be silent;
please stop your screaming, and love me
(Mother) That's all you can see
Speak of love while you've ruined
what's meant to be
(Child) And then I'll close my eyes
to fantasize of a world
Where I can be free
And free to be
(Contemplative) Sinner or righteous,
the line is so thin
Can you condemn it
Can you be the one to judge it all
Or accuse yourself if the sentence is your life?
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
forgive me for standing in your way
I just wanted someone who'd hold me and listen,
are these illusions, are they
(Mother) Only fantasies?
Imagine how my life could have been
I would still have my beauty,
my freedom, my dreams,
the independent me
(Contemplative) Our course in life is a path we must take alone
No one can choose what to do,
only you, so the sins we commit are the struggles within
There is no judge to decide what is right, what is wrong
Tell me, can you live in freedom
knowing that your choice hurt someone
(Father) Once we had a life and now we have you
The saviour of love is a catastrophe
I'll leave you both if I must give up my dreams
My chances aren't here with you
I won't be chained because of this
The sins of all, the sinner in me
I follow my dreams, you call it blasphemy
If my ideals are sins
To me they are the strength within
Then I shall stay a sinner
(Child) I can be free
And free to be
(Contemplative) Sinner or righteous,
the line is so thin
Can you condemn it
Can you be the one to judge it all
Or accuse yourself if the sentence is your life?
Artist: After Forever
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
there is so much I don't get
Please don't be mad at me; I will try harder,
I'll really do the best I can
(Mother) That's not enough
You're the cause of my domestic captivity
(Child) And I will close my eyes and fantasize
of a world that's not so cold
(Mother) That's how it will be
Suffer the causes of my personal misery
I've sacrificed my beauty,
my freedom, my dreams,
the independent me
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
Don't blame me for things I didn't do
Yes, I will go now and I'll be silent;
please stop your screaming, and love me
(Mother) That's all you can see
Speak of love while you've ruined
what's meant to be
(Child) And then I'll close my eyes
to fantasize of a world
Where I can be free
And free to be
(Contemplative) Sinner or righteous,
the line is so thin
Can you condemn it
Can you be the one to judge it all
Or accuse yourself if the sentence is your life?
(Child) Hello father, hello mother;
forgive me for standing in your way
I just wanted someone who'd hold me and listen,
are these illusions, are they
(Mother) Only fantasies?
Imagine how my life could have been
I would still have my beauty,
my freedom, my dreams,
the independent me
(Contemplative) Our course in life is a path we must take alone
No one can choose what to do,
only you, so the sins we commit are the struggles within
There is no judge to decide what is right, what is wrong
Tell me, can you live in freedom
knowing that your choice hurt someone
(Father) Once we had a life and now we have you
The saviour of love is a catastrophe
I'll leave you both if I must give up my dreams
My chances aren't here with you
I won't be chained because of this
The sins of all, the sinner in me
I follow my dreams, you call it blasphemy
If my ideals are sins
To me they are the strength within
Then I shall stay a sinner
(Child) I can be free
And free to be
(Contemplative) Sinner or righteous,
the line is so thin
Can you condemn it
Can you be the one to judge it all
Or accuse yourself if the sentence is your life?
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Heart Like A Grave By: Corinna Fugate
Heart Like A Grave
By: Corinna Fugate
You make me want to swing from a rope
You've killed my hope and my faith in humanity
Was butchered the moment you betrayed me
Keep your poetry, your dazzling red rose
I bleed such crimson at the cost of your prose
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
You're the one, like a siren from the sea
You lured me close to the waters' edge
You looked me in the eye then tried to drown me
Your love is a mirage
You are hollow inside
Your heart is a shadow that disappears in the light
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
You play the victim so well
But dear it's just one of your games
Your cruelty I have tasted
If drama was vodka you'd be so wasted
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
By: Corinna Fugate
You make me want to swing from a rope
You've killed my hope and my faith in humanity
Was butchered the moment you betrayed me
Keep your poetry, your dazzling red rose
I bleed such crimson at the cost of your prose
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
You're the one, like a siren from the sea
You lured me close to the waters' edge
You looked me in the eye then tried to drown me
Your love is a mirage
You are hollow inside
Your heart is a shadow that disappears in the light
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
You play the victim so well
But dear it's just one of your games
Your cruelty I have tasted
If drama was vodka you'd be so wasted
Your heart is like a grave
Cold and dead in every way
Like a vulture you circled, my heart was your prey
Your heart is like a grave and you are dead to me in every way
Sunday, September 23, 2007
A Constant Changing World
A Constant Changing World
Years tick by like hands on a clock.
Things began to change over the
years as life itself starts to evolve.
Winter to Spring
Summer to Fall
Endless seasons that witness the
changes of man. As more and more
forests start to disappear and animals
start to loses their homes.
A change that did not benefit Mother
Earth. Earthquake shatter the ground
beneath mankind's feet. Cracking earth
devouring the homes above. Leaving
many people in despair.
Cold to Hot
Dormant volcanes come alive after
years of rest. Endless lava flows
through the villages below, eatting
up whatever it touches.
Surprising tsunamis arise and tearing
placing from beneath the feet of many
people. Leaving behind devastation and
destruction.
Wet to Dry
Floods running wild in the streets where
rivers once flowed. Wild storms hit land as
forest began to catch fire. Tornado rip
throught forests as everything is sucked
up into a vortex.
Where houses once stood, now lay nothing
more than empty plains. Nothing remains
after the devastation hits, but where there
is death it seems that some sort of life follows.
Years tick by like hands on a clock.
Things began to change over the
years as life itself starts to evolve.
Winter to Spring
Summer to Fall
Endless seasons that witness the
changes of man. As more and more
forests start to disappear and animals
start to loses their homes.
A change that did not benefit Mother
Earth. Earthquake shatter the ground
beneath mankind's feet. Cracking earth
devouring the homes above. Leaving
many people in despair.
Cold to Hot
Dormant volcanes come alive after
years of rest. Endless lava flows
through the villages below, eatting
up whatever it touches.
Surprising tsunamis arise and tearing
placing from beneath the feet of many
people. Leaving behind devastation and
destruction.
Wet to Dry
Floods running wild in the streets where
rivers once flowed. Wild storms hit land as
forest began to catch fire. Tornado rip
throught forests as everything is sucked
up into a vortex.
Where houses once stood, now lay nothing
more than empty plains. Nothing remains
after the devastation hits, but where there
is death it seems that some sort of life follows.
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